good bye my past  ^^, /

helloooowww.. my blog...long time not hug you..cupcupmmuaacchh...
i have a progrees in my heart, loohh....u know what?? 

i'm feeling free...

i have completed my prayer..cleared my heart..
i ever said "i wish nothing but the best for you'' like adele....
that song was my life soundtrack..hahahaaa...
don't wanna waste my time for bad thing...i think God has a big plan for me..

he healed my heart....healed??hmm... i think my heart wasn't broke..i just need to say good bye to my past..God knows how the way, the time,..i met him when i fellt fine..oooo yeeaahh...just say hello????it wasn't a big problem..i admit that you've ever be special in journey of my life...colored my world, teached me, support me..

i say..thank you very muchh insteed..i'll remember you, but i won't...happy to know you..

many people said that he was a good man for me..i don't think so..
i agree with " if you could see "what i see" you are the answer to my prayer"
but you couldn't... in fact..you don't know a thing about me and my vission..
God opened my eyes, asked me to not make some excuse...
so many people aroud me, love me..,.
i open my eyes..you are not arround me..but it doesn't matter... i have family and friends..and i think they love me..yaaa..they love me..

i'm ready to move on...

 

and a just wanna say..Good bye my past...

thanks God, i got 1,5.... cup cup mmuuaaacchhh..

Be a succesful professional is a desire of everyone. English is very important for us even though English is not the native language of  Indonesian. Higher education is also important for those who want to survive in this modern era. Higher education and experience are needed to get higher level of job or career we want. Education needs to be employment oriented. One of education is learn English. I think it’s fun to learn English. Many of us had enrolled in English classes to improve our English skill. We do that because we need to use correct grammar, spelling, punctuation and make it as a habit in our daily life. Do you ever feel that someone who can speak  English perfectly will get a great future in his life?? I’ve ever. Saw my friend with his ability in English , made me think world was his. (maybe it’s  overdo ..big word.. :p). Yeah, I doubted my future at that time. Feels like life has no meaning, so gloomy. Hahahaha… But I woke up with this feeling, that better things are coming my way. ( hopeful  :))

People go for the school and college education of English as a preparation for their occupation. Every company has a different way to recruit people to become their employee. Most of them decide  English as a soft skill that applicants should have.  In foreign business or international company, English is considered indispensable. English needed in formal and informal condition in that business. An international company uses English for business administration and for the daily life cycle of the company it self. Saying the right words at the right time can make a great deal of cooperation between two companies. It’s very important for great gainful employment. Who is the actor? People with a great skill of course. It will be you and me. . The power and magic of words must never be underestimated. Whichever career we may choose, we  need to interact with people.  Having a good vocabulary can be a great asset when it comes to interviews and discussions. For good communications skills, we must have a command over language. Career levels become applicable to such employees who are qualified, competent, aggressive, competitive, career-minded and make a positive effect to the business. If we were a boss, we wouldn’t want to hire someone who can't represent their company in a favorable light, right?

It’s better for us to speak  English as early as possible. Sometimes it feels like English has no meaning, but I know English will be needed in the future. Sometimes I wish I could turn back time because I want to speak English since I could speak. Hope my mom and dad talked to me by using English since I was born. And then I called them mom and dad not mama and papa as a language of Indonesia, I wish I were.studied in international school. Hehehe… . But I thank God, because my siblings realized that English was necessary for our future. We practiced English since we’re have cell phone. It happened when I was in junior high school and my old brother and sister were in senior high school. They were outside of the town. We made a agreement to communicated by using English if we want to communicated one another. But that was not talking directly but by sent message by short message service. It helped us much even many words were mixed with language of Indonesia. We do that slowly and gradually till now. Glad to be a part of this family. (Miss you much guys ^0^).

            The importance of English is not just in how many people speak it but what it is used for. English is spoken by more people than any other language. A good vocabulary and correct knowledge of grammar can certainly work wonders. . If we want to be part of the international world, English is not only essential but it is a great help. It will helps us to communicate effectively with the other people in our English-speaking country. Getting hold of the right job is not an easy task. Even though we are Indonesian, English is still important. In Indonesia, studying English in school gets us good grades and good grades  lead us to a good job in the future, at least we have bravery and confidence with English. Very few people stick to the same job throughout their life.  If we are ambitious one, we will keep looking for more lucrative and challenging jobs elsewhere. Career development is a continuous process due to the changes in society and environment. It’s good to contribute our skill to our country. Not only make our life more comfortable or live with a fame, but also for a pride of our country. ( hmmm...proud to be Indonesian. 8-) ). Everyone has an own uniqueness. Such as Cinta Laura or Agnes Monica..Hwaaa.… I want to be like them, Indonesian but know English very well. ;-). Many people say that English is not important for future, and jeer people who practice English in their life, called them conceited (as Indonesian say “keminggris”). Hmm..just wanna say, they got nothin’ on you guys. Words can bring us down. Even future is a secret, one thing, life is a choice.

I want to become a part of world. Even I can’t be a miss world. (heheee… ). Learn English is a decision. You want it or not, that’s your choice. But for me, there ain’t no time to waste. I’m sure that English will help me to achieve my goal future. So yes, I definitely think that learning English is necesarry to make me a successful professional. Every little thing I do, never seems enough for me without English in it. I always  try to find the better part of me, cause I live and learn. I learn from my mistakes, my experiences, and the other people’s experiences. I don’t wanna lose a chance to learn English. There comes a day, when my parents finally get to proud of somebody, guess what? It’s gonna be me. (overconfidence, but must be like that  ^^v )

That’s all about my opinion.

special thanks to ITC Indonesia....  :)

ketika gw gak lebih

pasti semua dah sering banget deh denger nasihat, ptuah,kata2 mutiara atau apalah istilahnya, yaitu "be ur self' ato kalo Bruno Mars bilang nya “ just the way you are"

..mmm...gw juga sering bgt tu dlu nasihatin orang kayak gt .. sampe gw juga ngomong gt ke diri gw sendiri..Tapi lama kelamaan gw mikir,.. emang gak mikirin ini setiap hari sih,tp sempet terlintas d otak gw..yang buat gw gak setuju banget ma istilah ntu tadi..ni dia ni gw jabarin atu atu..

1. orang laen lebih pinter dari gw..

klo dibilang "jadilah elo apa adanya elo" ..ngeliat orang itungannya pinter, nguasain banyak bahasa,.klo gw bego, masa mw apa adanya bego nya gw?? gw gak mw donk bego sepanjang segala masa??apa harus bertahan ma 'just be ur self'?? #^#$&^$&^$*&^(&*^$3

2.'jadi apa adanya elo'.. hufth..artinya pede ma diri sendiri.. pernah gak ngerasa ato ngomong dalam ati.. "ih, tu anak enak bgt idupnya, masa depannya terjamin, bokapnya manager. relasi nya banyak..ah, pasti gak bakal pengangguran dah tu anak..pasti gak ngelamar kerja, pasti habis lulus kuliah, udah langsung ditarik kerja tu ma bokapnya dia ato knalan bokapnya die,,..sedangkan gw?? bokap gw biasa aja kerjanya..link?? hufth... jadi gak pede ma diri sendiri and masa depan... dunia serasa hanya milik mereka yang tajir...the way i am??  Ugh..

3. loe punya temen.. senengnya maen..hedon..sedangkan loe, takut hedon karena ngerasa takut dengan 'hukum tabur tuai'.,.padahal loe pengen bgt hang out ma temen2 loe..loe memilih jadi diri loe sendiri yang ngrasa aman klo loe gak macem2..gak seneng2..dan loe mambangun image loe sendiri dengan harapan "ah, pengorbana gw pasti gak sia2 nih, biarin dah gw nahan selera.." padahal sebenernya loe pengen bgt..n loe bilang "yeah, this is where I wanna be" padahal loe gak nyaman... loe menutup diri dari pergaulan.. hellow,,is that the true u??

4. loe ngakuin diri loe sendiri.. loe bilang..hmm..yupz, this is the real I am...'gw suka Akon, gw punya album terbarunya Ne-Yo.." loe suka apa yang disuka orang , loe pengen apa yang orang laen pengen..loe gak mau kalah dari orang lain.hanya karna loe mau dianggap ma orang2 di sekitar loe..ma temen2 loe...itu artinya, loe maksa diri loe sendiri..so, that's not the way you are.. 

5.tampang loe di bawah rata-rata, loe nyadar bgt soal itu.. loe pengen  jadi temen loe yang cakep,cantik, keren tp waktu ada yang ngedeketin loe, and nge gombal, bilang dia suka loe apa adanya, hhuuuffttgghh...gak bgt..masa dia gak suka klo loe lebih oke dari yang sekarang??? boonk bgt tu..

hmmm...gw pernah ngalamin itu semua...ternyata setelah gw doa, Tuhan kasih jawabannya ma gw..

 He said " hey, manusia yang kurang percaya"  @^%#^^&$&^^#&^^%*$%&*

malu rasanya waktu dibilang gt...wuikk...secara ya..gw terlahir dari keluarga Kristen (trus napa),  gw rajin greja dari gw baru lahir (di bawa nyokap bokap :D), nilai agama gw bagus, PPKN juga, olahraga jg (lho kok??),  gw aktif d kerohanian SMA gw (gak aktif2 bgt sih), gw ikut persekutuan di kampus gw, pernah jadi koordinator komisi lagi...kaget bgt gw waktu Papa Jesus ngomong gt ke gw...padahal kan gw dah gede...aarrggghh...

Tp emang bener..gw emang kurang percaya..gw slalu ngeliat apa yang dilihat manusia..gw slalu mikir, klo gw jadi anak itu (bokapnya tajir), pasti masa depan gw terjamin, pasti gw sukses...hmm..gw mngandalkan manusia...padahal kan bisa aja, tu bokap temen gw tu tiba2 ngusir anaknya dari rumah, dipecat jadi anak..trus malah ngangkat orang lain jadi anaknya.. (sinetron bgt ya)..kan tu anak kandung  gak jadi direkrut bokapnya.. :D :P

hmmm...lama - lama, gw makin bersyukur buat smw yang udah Tuhan kasih bwt gw..segala pengertian, pandangan hidup, yang membuat gw semakin dewasa. apa adanya gw yang sekarang, gw tetep gak mw terus stagnant di apa adanya gw sekarang,..gw bakal jadi gw yang semakin hari semakin baik... jadi revisia dari yang di atas adalaaaahhh,,,jeng jeng jeeeeenggg..

1. loe blajar lebih banyak lagi..banyak latihan,. loe boleh iri ma temen loe yang pinter, karena iri versi gw adalah: "salute to someone, and you can do the great things on ur part..jadi kepinteran loe mungkin gak sama sama orang laen, tapi loe pasti bisa ngelakuain yang terbaik sebisa loe..

2. thank's your mome and dad for giving you birth in this world..kaya ato miskin bonyok loe, loe adalah anak 'Raja'..jadi, knapa harus takutt..mungkin temen loe emang dapat job yang oke dari bokap nya, tp, gw n loe harus yakin, klo masa depan kita aman di tangan NYA, karena 'kita akan jadi kepala, bukan ekor….  (sangat menenangkan ni, inget ini)

3. karena loe n gw adalah kitab yang terbuka yang dibaca banyak orang..gak usah nutup2in, jadilah berkat..orang lain bakal dapet sesuatu yang berharga dari apa yang loe lakuin, loe omongin,. hiduplah ntuk memberi pengaruh positif buat orang lain

4. kalo loe banyak terpengaruh ma orang lain, pasti rasanya gak enak bgt..orang bilang sepatu merk ini yang paling bagus, loe ngikut, padahal loe gak tau apa2 soal merk sepatu..malu bgt kn klo ngobrol sesuatu yang loe 'sok tau' ?? boonk donk namanya..misalnya ni ya..waktu loe namu ke rumah temen loe, nyokap temen loe nanya "hey, udah makan??"   "udah tante" padahal perut loe blom keisi dari loe bangun pagi.. " makan apa tadi ?? " "mie ayam tante "  "oo..sama siapa??" "di mana??" tuh kan..coba loe ngomong jujur dari awal..hmm makanan gratis langsung disodorin tu ma tante..iya gak tan (@#%$^$%^^&)

5. fisik..hmm..gw pernah tw istilah ini ni " selama loe nge nilai orang dari fisiknya, orang lain juga nge nilai elo dari fisik loe" hmm...tapi gmn gmn pun, kesan pertama emang fisik..gak bisa dipungkiri..tapi apa pun itu, gak da salahnya klo kita lebih rapi, lebih enak diliat... ya tujuan utamanya gak untuk dilihat orang lain, tapi buat kenyamanan kita sendiri..pasti bakal lebih mencintai diri sendiri....

whatever  people say, still believe, Words can't bring us down...we can be better..

GOd Bless Us

it's not easy to be me

mmm...
ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream...
beautiful, independent, succesful..

i finally know.. I can reach it with God on my way..
it's the best that I've ever had... Trust my life in God.. i knew something.. sometimes I wish  I could turn back time.. i look around and scream " words can't bring me down"
I always  try to find the better part of me..coz I live and learn ..
I'm only a girl in my own paradise.. sometimes act like a baby, sometimes lady,  can't pretend my feeling, but can keep it save in my mind..
I'm special.. I love my self, and I'm lucky i know..Thank's God for creating me.. Mome and Dad, thank you so much for giving me birth in this world..